Hauntingly beautiful is the perfect way of describing Laura Nowlin’s If He Had Been With Me. The young adult novel was published on April 2nd, 2013 and I have read it several times since then. Picking it off the shelf makes me feel warm inside, like I am visiting old friends, despite the emotions I feel towards the end. It is a story that has stayed with me for years, and I imagine it will continue to do so for a very long time.
I feel for Autumn and Finny, the main characters. Their lives, their hopes and desires, and their character flaws all resonate with me in some way that has reached inside and taken hold. I’m fairly detached in personality, but I cried at the end, and felt real anger towards decisions made. The story is from Autumn’s point of view, but I firmly believe that Finn’s is just as important and wish it could be explored in greater detail. I ache to know more even though their stories are long over.
Autumn and Finn are life long friends who grow apart as they grow up, each still loving the other in their own way despite cold distance at times. During their senior year of high school, the ice begins to thaw between them, and the summer before college, they realize how much they love each other. On August 8th, that all changes forever.
I like all kinds of books, although my preferences do typically tend towards paranormal and urban fantasy. Neil Gaiman is my favorite author. However, when asked for a recommendation by someone, If He Had Been With Me is my typical answer. And that’s the highest praise I can give.